A person hides their emotions & thoughts not because they can't express themselves. It's because they don't see why the world needs to know.
Note to self: You gotta do this for you. This is for you. This isn't for anybody. Live for you. Honour you. Never lose sight of that.
They tell you to be loving, to be quiet, to listen, to do as you're told but in other words, they're just telling you to be a machine.