Most people won’t hear God’s voice today. But many will hear yours. Be love, give love.
Let’s love people more than they hate themselves.
Saturday was my 37th Birthday. Twenty years ago, when I was 17, I never thought I would make it as an adult. I was reckless. I drank a lot, smoked a lot, and drove way too fast. But my greatest thrill was to win the affection of my friends, because deep down I had no affection for myself.
At 20, I was a big shot. I had “reclaimed my life” and was a legendary (read: self righteous) follower of Jesus. Again, my drug of choice was the respect and affirmation I won from people for my “good behavior”. I tricked myself into believing that my performance determined my value.
For almost a decade, I succeeded because of my performance and my apparent good behavior. People responded when I performed well in ministry and in my home. Winning this game meant survival, because I believed them. They liked me, I liked me. They didn’t like me, well, I must try harder.
My thirties brought situations that reminded me that I was human and like everyone else, I was still a mess. I’m coming to realize that Humility is not an option as you get older, because at it’s root it’s nothing more than honesty. The life of facades and performance is simply exhausting. I’ve found it’s just easier to let God love you in your mess than to perform for human love.
Now in the twilight of my thirties, I’m not sure if it’s wisdom, but I do have a couple of things straight. Relationships are now more important than money. Community more important than retirement. Loving my wife, the only mission I want to be an expert in.
I believe in a God who loves me as I am and not as I should be, and the greatest thing I can offer the world is that same kind of love. I want to love people more than they hate themselves, so that they don’t have to perform like I did for so many years, so that they quit the act, receive healing found in authenticity, and accept that in the midst of all of their shit, they are loved beyond imagination by a forever God.
If you are fighting to keep the performance up, hear me today; don’t wait as long as I did to love yourself. God loves you and so do I. Now go give that kind of love away! #hopenotfear
Want peace in the world? Take the Pope's approach; Invite neighbors into your backyard, listen to one another, and pray.
Jesus knew we would be hungry. So, He made Himself edible.
Tonight, our sweet Avila Celeste will receive for the first time the risen Lord in the Sacrament of the Altar.
Lord, make her heart ready to receive you fully. Let her know your love and give her the grace enough to follow your holy will throughout her life. Amen.
Don’t pick certain people to love. Live dangerously and just love everybody.
Fear tells us holiness is a long impossible race. Grace shows us that it's just one step after another.
Loving people the way Jesus did is the best theology.
Today I'm filled with gratitude for this woman. She teaches me theology everyday. She's my support, my healing, and has revealed to me my true identity as a son of God. She's my favorite person, my A+, my number one, the cutest, the hottest, my greatest gift, my beloved. I couldn't ask for a greater companion along the pilgrimage to heaven. It's not always easy. The road is rough most days. But as long as her hand is in mine, I'll keep walking, dancing, rejoicing.
Everything in the world might fail and pass away. But I will continue to fight for us, this good thing we got going, until my last breath. I promise again. I choose you again, forever. My sister, my bride.
Happy 15th Anniversary @canahickman !
Thanks to everyone who came and celebrated with us last night. We don't exist without you!